Nervous..

I am beyond nervous for our first doctor appointment and first ultrasound tomorrow! I am excited, but my nerves are getting the best of me. :( I am praying everything turns out ok. I am hoping we are able to see/hear the heartbeat. I think I will feel so much better knowing this little monkey is healthy and growing. Although some of my symptoms have slowed or arent there anymore, there are still some VERY noticeable. So I am being positive that everything IS ok. I guess I will update tomorrow with the news. Until then..

New layout..

So I absolutely love this background I have. If you cant tell just by the colors alone, I am very much rooting for TEAM BLUE!! If we are having a little girl, I will change the background to something girlie. But until then, this is my vote for a BOY. We will take whatever is given to us though, as we know this is very much a miracle baby.

6 weeks 3 day..

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along:  6 weeks 1 day
Baby's Size in Fruit:  Sweet Pea
Total Weight Gain/Loss:  Unknown til first appt which is this Friday
Symptoms:  Sore boobs, nausea, bloating, and frequent bathroom trips
Food Craving:  Nachos (and cant have nachos without sour cream.. hehe)
Gender:   Unknown
Movement:  None
Sleep: Sleeping ok, just wake up for bathroom trips
Belly Button:  In
Stretch Marks: Had them before pregnancy, but nothing new
Maternity Clothes: None yet (Although with my bloating, I am needing looser clothes)
What I miss:  Sleeping on my tummy completely
Best Moment this week:  Picking out names with hubby!
What I am looking forward to:  Our first OB appt this Friday
How is Daddy-to-be:  Getting more excited.. And excited for our first appt.

I look like total hell this week! I have been sick since Friday night and since I'm pregnant, there isn't much I can take for this sickness. :( So it was comfy clothes and messed up hair. I really didn't care.

We are super excited for our appointment on Friday. Praying everything is ok and we will be able to see our little monkey on the ultrasound. Until next time..

Tired..

Wow, I didnt realize how tired I could actually get! I was really tired right after I found out I was pregnant, but it seemed to get a little better. Well it came back 10x worse. Then to add on top of that, I got my nausea back with even more bloating than before. I love that I am getting all these symptoms, because yes I did ask for them.

I just would rather be home by myself, in a quiet environment. So if I am offending anyone, dont take it personal! Once these first trimester symptoms ease off a little more, I will be more up beat. But they are kicking my butt which makes me want to just sleep!

Well I'm off for now. I will be back to update with my weekly highlights on Sunday. Until then..

Thoughts on Becoming a Mother..

I found this on a blog I had read a month or so back. Never realizing I would be pregnant right now. Really hit home when I read it.

Thoughts on Becoming a Mother
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body, I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immerse power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother.

5 weeks 3 day..

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along:  5 weeks 1 day
Baby’s Size in fruit:  Appleseed
Total Weight Gain/Loss:  Unknown til first appt
Symptoms:  Sore boobs, NAUSEA, bloating, and frequent bathroom trips
Food Craving:  Nachos (so the hubby says.. lol)
Gender:   Unknown
Movement:  None
Sleep: Sleeping ok, just wake up for bathroom trips
Belly Button:  In
Stretch Marks: Had them before pregnancy, but nothing new
Maternity Clothes: None yet.. Although with my bloating, I am needing looser clothes
What I miss:  Being able to eat what I want without feeling bloated
Best Moment this week:  Announcing to family  and friends we are expecting!
What I am looking forward to:  Our first OB appt on Oct. 1st
How is Daddy-to-be:  Very happy!!

4 week 6 days..

So I decided I would atleast post this one I did earlier in the week. I will be starting with the belly shots tomorrow. So here is this last weeks highlights..

Pregnancy Highlights

How Far Along:  4 weeks 4 days
Baby’s Size in fruit:  Poppy seed
Total Weight Gain/Loss:  Unknown until first appointment
Symptoms:  VERY sore boobs, nausea, tiredness, headaches, 

frequent bathroom trips, and quite a bit of bloating
Food Craving:  None yet
Gender:  Don’t know yet
Movement:  None
Sleep:  Still sleeping ok, just up for frequent bathroom breaks
Belly Button:  In
Stretch Marks:  Had them before the pregnancy, but nothing new
Maternity Clothes:  Don’t need them yet
What I miss:  Being able to eat full meals and sleeping on my stomach
Best Moment this week:  Finding out we are pregnant! 

What I am looking forward to:  Our first OB appointment on Oct. 1st
How is Daddy-to-be:  Excited but still having a hard time grasping we are actually pregnant

Its official...

WE ARE PREGNANT!!

As of right now, we are pretty sure our due date is May 21, 2011, which puts me at 5 weeks today. We will know more at our first doctor appointment on October 1st. Until then, I will be updating with weekly "pregnancy highlights". I am hoping to do them every Sunday. It will be so neat to be able to see how much has changed in just the course of a week, and to watch my belly grow during this pregnancy.

I am hoping this will help me journal a little more about this baby, so I can have those memories years down the road. So here's the start to an adventurous 9 months..